lately i just haven't been feeling good about myself.
im sorry for the major lack of updates as well, as i just cant seem to get motivated to do anything but work...
so im bartending now...
which means, i stand behind a bar with people on the other side getting served drinks...
after work, i come home.. i get drunk, and fall asleep... i usually wake up really early... when nobody is awake, and the sky is still black, and the house, and the streets are quiet...
i usually just walk over to one of the livingrooms, where my dog is sleeping, and i just lay there staring at the orangey glow on the street, from the streetlight, through the crac